It's not over yet...

As everyone says, moving on is never easy. And I guess I wouldn't get over him that easy. Yes, I have realized that it isn't just the right time and the right thing for me. But unconsciously, my heart still longs for him. Or maybe this is just over-reaction with my dream about him last night. Or this is also normal, a girl who misses one of her closest friends. Well, I just missed him already. I hope there's a way I could let him know without me feeling awkward about it.

Yesterday, it was the first time I was able to spend time chatting with my new office mates during lunch break. It was nice that I finally had the chance to talk with them because for the first three weeks I was only smiling, staring and feeling too shy to share my own stories because I was a new employee. They were talking about their boy friends and I had the nerves to ask about their stories. Then, the question was passed on to me and so the usual no-boyfriend-since-birth story of mine was brought up. They asked me why I never had a boyfriend and I used my strict-parents as my excuse. Then they started suggesting that I start looking for a boyfriend cause it's fun to be in a relationship. They asked me what type of guy am I looking for.

I couldn't answer. I couldn't say it but what was in my mind that time is that I am not looking for some other guy, because I was waiting for someone. It turns out that I am still waiting. After all the realizations, here am I, still waiting. And he was the person that came in to my mind. 

Anyway, I would never go out there and look for someone to be my boy friend. I'm not that kind of girl. I know that God has someone reserved for me. And no matter what others say, I will always believe that God will reveal that person to me at the right time, and I don't need to look for it. I just have to pray for it. :)